Here it is my confessional.
Forgive me Father for I have sinned.
I have been gluttonous and it is showing.
Okay it's here in writing so that I can move forward and make my goals known so that I am accountable. Even if I am the only one reading this.
Starting Weight: 166
Today's Weight: 171
Weight Loss so far: +5
YES I have gained. Here's why. I chose to eat out as frequently as I could. I was sick and didn't feel energetic or well so I ate out, which in turn made me feel worse. It's a terrible cycle. High fat, not choosing to pick healthy choices. I figured what the hell and went there. I also chose to eat sweets. You know the kind; candy, candy, some pop, a cookie or cake here and there, and more candy. What a slippery slope.
While laying in bed last Sunday morning next to my wonderful and equally vexed husband we patted our bellies and decided enough was enough.
Here's how I plan to fix it.
Go back on plan. Which means, eating breakfast, low calorie and low fat meals. Eating the correct proportions and not completely depriving myself so that I don't binge. Get my veggies back in my diet and stop eating after 9:00 p.m.
Next step to my plan, walk/run for 60 minutes at least 4x a week.
William got me a new pair of running shoes that will make this portion of my plan much more achievable.
For the last little while I have been buying really cheap cross trainers and thinking that they would be sufficient. To my dismay they have been horrible. Not only do my walks feel forced and extremely exerting but they also HURT!!
Since my new shoes have entered my life my walks feel much more do-able.
First goal is to lose 10% of my total weight. Puts me at 154. I plan to reach this goal by the end of May. 2 lbs a week is an achievable goal.
As for my bad attitude. I know that this is not a matter of will power but a matter of my attitude about myself and what I want to accomplish.
I know how it feels to be at 135 and I know how it feels to e 171. This is not a vanity thing. It's not that I don't think I look good, although having back fat is not something that I relish. This is about feeling good. I feel the difference and I don't feel good. I feel slothful and slow. I feel sluggish and depressed. I am sick of feeling this way it's not in my nature.
So I am off and running.
